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I was stupid and fucked up.. I hurt the person I love the most because I was afraid I wouldn't be accepted if I show the other side of me.. Sometimes I feel that I don't deserve anyone.. Because I know I'd hurt them all just the same with my lies.. I hate lying.. It hurts to lie and most of all, it hurts the people I love.. The truth is, there's just a side of me that I don't even know sometimes.. A side that's different.. A side that wants freedom to hurt people.. A side I can't accept that is a part of me.. A side that I don't know how I detach my self from. And it hurts.. It really hurts..