Having a good cry

Yeah I posted this on the forum too. But heh, this is the only place I can really talk about how I feel.

I miss Hsun. I really do. I feel like I've been avoiding that name for a while.. Last night, I think I've cried every single drop that I've been wanting to do for quite some time now.

My life will never be the same, that much I know of. I don't know for how long I have to stay tough without someone who really cared about me. I don't know why I suddenly felt so down and lost lately. What was in that dream? I never understood why Hsun was there. =/

No one really cares anymore. I feel like even if I die, no one will bother to care. I hate living this life. I feel so lost..So damn lost..

Anyhoo.. It's Lilya's birthday. Weee debutant =D