Last post for this month

Look at that..time flies by so fast! I felt like, this month just passed by with me not knowing it. Geez.. Anyway, I found a really cool forum the other day, and until now I'm editing it. Blah! I still need to edit my classmates' pics, put 'em together, do some cool animation with it. Make my own avvy and banner. That'll take me ages =P

Ahhh I haven't dropped by to the booth for some time now. But I can't let go of my addictiveness on the internet..or the computer rather.And I have to leave my counter-strike playing time to devote myself to finish the forum today.Blah!

This whole moderating think is stressing me alot. I think I'm gonna rest for a while. Oh and nunzy is an O-mod now (yay!) It's about time ya know. I think it's down to me,her, and the others who joined the forum and sticked with it until now. I'm so proud of them =D

I miss ms. Jaybee and ms. Dos and Sir Joe and Sir John. I miss my Batchmates! ACB3! I really think I should drop by at the station this week. It's sad that I'm kinda losing interest now because of this damn computer! Shame on you computer!

Lalala...

Didn't go to class today...because I'm feeling lazy..because I want to be a bum for a day. Who cares? I do. lalala...

I get to download some cool soundtrack from Witch Hunter Robin. It all rocks! I love it alot..=D

And my chatmate/forum-mate sent me an old russian song, and I loved it! It's so relaxing. It's from the movie Full Metal Alchemist and the song is called "Brat'ya" It's really nice..

Panic Panic Panic!

Oh no the forum's down..Oh no.. What am I gonna do the whole day without the forum?! Ahhhhhh! Damn Hackers! I hate you!Why do you have to hack that forum! There are millions of forums! Why do you have to go back and hack that forum..AGAIN!Panic! Shit!

Ahhhh Nerve Cracking!

I absolutely hate people who don't have their own opinion. Please, we need some common sense here people! Don't you have your own mind?! If you're old enough, please act like a mature human being who is worth MY time. Geez!If you have an opinion, try to back it up(something that has sense!) because nothing irritates me more than people who can't back up their own opinion and still think they're right. Freaking out of their MIND!!!Grow up will ya!

*Sighs* That's one hell of a rant..It's so hard to moderate..xena's right, I also feel like I'm in a kindergarten or something..

Leaving Everything Behind

I know I should move on.. It's not easy, but I have to. I made a deal to myself that if that person will not talk to me by the end of this day, I will leave it all behind. I've done so many things that I know I should not have done. But I love that person too much to leave it all behind. I've tried, Lord knows I've tried to make things right, but it's all just the same, I'm still here..Alone, trying to figure things out. Thinking if I've done everything things would have been the same. But I'm only human, I get tired, I get hurt..

I love that person so much.. But I'm tired of sleepless nights,tired of crying my heart out, and most of all waiting for that chance to once again talk to this person and say everything that I need to say. But I guess things are better left unsaid..

I never realized that while I keep my door closed to anyone, I keep hurting the person who loves me the most. I never realized that he's all I've got and he won't give up on me like that person did. I've been living in my own world while I keep him outside, but still loving me.

But I feel like they're all the same. They always leave me behind.. I can't trust anymore. It's just too much to risk. I fell too deep and then I got burned..

For that person: I do hope you receieved my text, and though you didn't reply, please know that after this day, I will let you out of my life but will remember everything about you who once gave the happiness I thought I could never have. But don't come back to me. When I get through this, don't come back, because the person you left behind will not be there anymore.. I won't be here anymore to wait for you, you're not worth waiting for, 'cause you only caused me pain and a scar that will never leave. And I will find that happiness again, but not with you, not anymore..Never again will I cry for you again. Remember these words..

It will be over soon..and I can breathe again..

There's no way out..

Why do things happen when you know there's no easy way out? How can someone move on like you've never been a part of their life? How can I live my life without hoping that someone will someday comeback?Knowing that if they ever do, they still have your heart..That the feelings never changed, that even though they've hurt you so bad you still find a room to forgive them? How can you wish them to be happy when you're living a miserable life? How can love affect a person's life so much that it changes them forever?

Everybody's saying goodbye..but I'm still here..I'm still here..


" I've learned that life's tough, but I'm tougher.."

Standing at the Edge of the Earth

Hm, I remember when jhem introduced this song. I wonder if she ever found out whose the group that sung it. Blessed Union of Souls, Standing at the Edge of the Earth, well Jhem heard this song in one of the animes and this song was used as a soundtrack actually. Then while I was listening to the radio one night, they played this and remembered Jhem! hehe! Oh well, I love this song, and I can relate to it right now..


I knew that this moment would come in time
That I'd have to let go and watch you fly
I know you're coming back so why am I dying inside
Are you searching for words that you can't find
Trying to hide your emotions but eyes don't lie
Guess there's no easy way to say goodbye

I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that someday you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping for someday

Don't misunderstand what I'm trying to say
I don't want to let you leave this way
I want you to know that I stand right by your side
And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....

I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday

And I know this may be
The very last time that we see each other cry
But whatever happens know that I'll....

I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth hoping that someday
You'll come back to me
I'll be praying for whatever it's worth
Believing that one day you'll come back again
I'll be standing at the edge of the earth
Hoping for someday
Waiting for someday
Believing in someday
Praying for someday, I'll be....
Longing for someday
Clinging to someday
Cherishing someday, I'll be....
Thinking of someday
Dreaming of someday
Wishing for someday, I'll be....
Living for someday
Counting on someday
Knowing that one day....
I will see you

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No matter how hard you try, it'll never stop haunting you..

Why it had to be you?

I'm recovering..

..from my past..I guess it just takes time. Actually, may be it's because God just loves me so much that He doesn't want me to suffer anymore. Sure I still get depress but not so much anymore. I'm keeping myself busy now,often off for a training, which is cool 'cause I get to do what I really want( I think I'm born for it,pffft!Don't be arrogant Mitch!Hehe!). Yep, I'm officially an airchecker, can this get any better? I am so blessed, that's all I can think and feel.

So many events that's being held!Oh yes, my first time to go inside Hard Rock Cafe and it turned out great! Another one this coming thursday and it's all about the "Bling Bling" baaaby! haha! Also, this past few weeks I've realized so many things that I never thought I would. I guess I was blinded with hatred and pain that I failed to see what's being placed infront of me. I thank that person for hurting me, for if not to that person, I wouldn't be this strong today. Although, I still feel empty at times, but I have people who loves me and ready to support me. That's all I need. That's all I could ask for.Again, thank you.=)

" I've learned that love, not time, heals all wounds"