I can't believe I'm experiencing this, can you actually believe that I'm having low blood pressure?I hope it won't turn into cancer *knocks on wood*
Ahh I'm so happy! I made it as one of the qualifiers for aircheck!Though, there are about 45 of us so I guess I'm gonna need alot of luck. *sighs*
I got to hanged out with my friends today, they're a couple. (I swear I wasn't jealous =P) So anyway, it was really fun talking to them and seeing how happy they are together(ok well maybe a li'l jealous..) I seem to lost hope in making relationship work.. I don't know if the problem is me or them.
Gah.. I think my modern physics instructor is going to give me a loooooong(pain in the arse) term. I guess I should really take studying seriously if I want to have a good future.
I'm always late in my first class subject, not like me eh? Yeah right! I'm always late! Bwahaha..ha!ahem..Plus, this ulcer in my mouth is really bugging me! It's giving a headache!( Actually that's my wisdom tooth growing, nothing to do with my ulcer but anyway..)
Aw boo.. I have got to have that fanfic book! I've got to haaaaave it!ahhhh!Baliw!haha!
Ok so I'm done with me being a total weirdo, let's get serious here(Not again..)
So I lost the only thing that makes me happy, and I think I'm losing my family too..I feel like we're just doing our own thing and don't really care with each other anymore. I'm sad to see my mom getting hurt because my younger bro chooses a path that I think would lead him into something awful in the end. I want him to finish college and do what he really wants to do. But I don't think he even knows what he's doing. I'm praying to God to give me strength, because I think I'm losing my faith..
How come when you try to put your pride low, that's the time that they will turn you down?Or to make it more sensible, they take you for granted? I mean, technically, I really don't get why you can't bring back the old friendship that was left behind. Is it really true that " friends become lovers, but lovers can never be friends"? I think it's a total bull! I think that it's immaturity. But I guess, wounds take time to heal..Though I was the one who was left behind, so why should I also be the one who can't have the friendship that I ask for? Because I haven't moved on yet?
I would be lying if I said I have..
